33. Anxiety attack

 Assalammualaikum

Hai,

As you all know that I've been working for almost 1 year now. Currently I have been assigned with multiple project concurrently. Hurmm.. 

I don't know how to describe my feeling last couple of weeks. Sometimes I just don't understand myself. I felt so disappointed stress anxiety useless .. I really don't know.  It is indescribable!!! With the project and task assigned to me, I felt stress! I felt like I don't know how to do my work. I'm worried of people perception, paranoid with what others might talk about me behind me. I felt like a dejavuu,  pengalaman lama menghantui kembali. I am scared, with what I do not sure. I felt no hope. 

Someone said that "People fear with what they don't know"

Oh Allah, sometimes I do feel regret why did I accepted this job offer? But, I have faith in You, I believed this is the best plan for me and my family. I need to be strong to go through this.

But Alhamdulillah, this week I'm getting better. You need to have a positive mind, and please do not bother with what others might think about you, because you will never ever ever satisfy semua orang. Just stay calm, do your work at its best, and doa to Allah to ease everything. 

Ya Allah,

Aku sentiasa menyerah urusanku bulat bulat kepada Mu (untuk memeliharaku). Sesungguhnya Engkau maha melihat akan keadaan hambanya. 

32. Slowness

 Assalammualaikum.

Hola!

Nothing much want to update. Covid-19 is still here. But alhamdulillah getting much-much-much better for Malaysia. But not for other country, the cases still high.

Kids has started school with new norm. Wearing mask is a must. 

31. Covid -19, WFH & Research

Assalammualaikum

Hello!

Today is Saturday. Planned to wake up at 4 am for my research but failed. Luckily, Suhaib woke me up before he went to work. He wanted a sandwich. Ok then, perfect timing. Sambil gosok mata I made him sandwich. He so baik hati make me a jug of Nescafe. See, how we balanced each other👅.

So, mata-sudah-celik can update blog lah. hahahaha

Actually i wanted to shared about the Covid-19 pendemic and how my life cycle has changed tremendously.
I feel so blessed that i still have paid job. Alhamdulillah. It  has been almost three months that I've started WFH. I only required to be on-site like once a month. No more daily two hours standing in MRT.
Oh, Suhaib already started to go to office past month if I'm not mistaken. And by the way, his salary has been on-hold for 3 month already. Oh Allah, please ease us to go through this situation. Berikankanlah kami sentiasa cukup dengan yang sedikit. 

 Hmmmm..

But, so far so good. Although with the kids 24/7 with me, i think they behave so well. 

Alhamdulillah.  Except that I need to prepare foods and melayan their crankiness sometimes. But, everything is under control. If mama-jadi-hijau kadang-kadang tu, adatlah kan 😅

On the other side, my research is progressing slowly. But progressinglah. 

1. Expert Review - settled

2. Expert Review Result Analysis - on going (still figuring how to do)

3. Website validation - on going ( having problem to explain multiple tools result in one standard table). I've tried, but it requires a tedious job to filter about 500 errors for each website. Figuring how make it more easier - as not much time should be spend here. 

4. Website expert validation- not started.

There you go! 

My update for now.

adios.

30. Back to Office

Assalammualaikum

Did i ever mention that i have already started work? I mean working! Real kind of 8:30-5:30 routine?
Huhuhuhu
Alhamdulillah,
This month going to be my 4th month as a system analyst at one of the financial institution in our country.  I've started work back in end of Dec last year.
Allah's plan is the best!
I got the offer just inline with my contract as part time lecturer end. However struggle bagai-nak-rak  to finish marking those exam script in 2 days.
Phew!!
Alhamdulillah. Managed to upload student's marks on time....(dekat opis) hahahaha

Btw, my ethics application has approved! Syukur....
Currently improvising my expert review questionnaire.

Please doa for my success ye semua.
Amin