38. Welcome 2024

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Hello my blog. 

Wow! It has been almost a year since I wrote here. Many had happend - sweet , sour, bitter , kelat semua pun adalah.
But, that is life right?! 

As per Allah promised - we will never be tested beyond our ability. Allah will always has good plan for us ahead. Please have sabar in yourself.

So, the latest news is.... drumroll pleaseeee.. 🥁🥁🥁

I've been selected for an interview next week that requires me to write an essay as one of the interview pre-req. Here I am, practicing writting. Hahahaha

Hoping that i will do my very best for the interview. It is an operation support position which im still contempleting to move in. But, lets see the offer first - eleh, macam dah confirm dapat je😂

Oklah, will rant tommorow here. Please bare with my writing strarting today to next week 

Bye

37. Welcome 2023

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Anyone miss me? oh maybe i myself yang miss ranting here. hahahaha 

Years seems passed by really fast. I am now in my semester 9. Sedar tak sedar, survived 3years as system analyst😂

There are so much thing that i left it hangging. Why did i do that?! I am confused with regrets. 

Siapa yang rugi?

Allah kan dah pesan, diri sendiri je tak sedar

By time
Indeed, mankind is in loss,
Except for those who have believed and done righteous deeds and advised each other to truth and advised each other to patience -  Surah Al-Asr

Oh Allah, 

Please help me to finish what i've started. 

Grant me courage to get through all this. 

Hei 2023! Joms, lets do this right! Lets aim for the best, PHD submission this year. Amin

36. Back to office

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Hola!

how is everyone? Anyone miss me? hahahaha

Yup! I am going back to office next week after almost a year WFH. The time has come! Need to get ready to cope with new routine.

Wish me best of luck!

Some updates for going to end PHD - amin. My sv wanted me to publish in one of the conference in Dec. But the date submission is this coming early Nov. Wish me luck ya :). Currently progressing lightly with section II. 

I cant help to get my PHD complete. almost 5 years doing it. Hopefully ALLAH granted me to have a PhD. Amin. 

Btw, i am in the midst of applying Ts. title. Based on MBOT status, my application is ready for assessment. It might takes 2-3 months for processing. Bismillah.

Till then 

Bye!

35. Covid- 19 is real

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Yup! This pandemic is real guys! Stay safe everyone. 

Follow SOP!

Stay Home!

We can win this!

Little update on my life. 

I've been so busy with my work since early this year. The job scope require me to do many things that is not my forte. I've gone through a bad emotional experiences. I easily got PANIC attack. My heart pumping like crazy rasa macam nak pecah dada, my hand and feet feel so cold, my hand sweating, pipi rasa panas  and my more symptom that I never had before.  I took DASS test online and the result says severe anxiety! Ya ALLAH, please help me. But, alhamdulillah. I feel much more better now as my project currently live. We go live on 15 July, and to date haven't received any incident on it. Wondering if any users actually using the system. Hahahahah. 

I also start using essential oils to help me control my mood. Alhamdulillah, it works sometimes. 

Nothing much to update on my research as i am so busy with my office work. It is hard to find time to do my research. oh Allah please help me on this! I only have you. No one else can help me. Im begging. 

I believed in ALLAH's promised setiap kesusahan pasti ada kemudahan. Only this quote that keep me moving.

Till then

Bye all

testing

 

34. Keep going girl !

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Hola. 

Keep going Mariam. 

finish what you have started. 

33. Anxiety attack

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Hai,

As you all know that I've been working for almost 1 year now. Currently I have been assigned with multiple project concurrently. Hurmm.. 

I don't know how to describe my feeling last couple of weeks. Sometimes I just don't understand myself. I felt so disappointed stress anxiety useless .. I really don't know.  It is indescribable!!! With the project and task assigned to me, I felt stress! I felt like I don't know how to do my work. I'm worried of people perception, paranoid with what others might talk about me behind me. I felt like a dejavuu,  pengalaman lama menghantui kembali. I am scared, with what I do not sure. I felt no hope. 

Someone said that "People fear with what they don't know"

Oh Allah, sometimes I do feel regret why did I accepted this job offer? But, I have faith in You, I believed this is the best plan for me and my family. I need to be strong to go through this.

But Alhamdulillah, this week I'm getting better. You need to have a positive mind, and please do not bother with what others might think about you, because you will never ever ever satisfy semua orang. Just stay calm, do your work at its best, and doa to Allah to ease everything. 

Ya Allah,

Aku sentiasa menyerah urusanku bulat bulat kepada Mu (untuk memeliharaku). Sesungguhnya Engkau maha melihat akan keadaan hambanya. 

32. Slowness

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Hola!

Nothing much want to update. Covid-19 is still here. But alhamdulillah getting much-much-much better for Malaysia. But not for other country, the cases still high.

Kids has started school with new norm. Wearing mask is a must. 

31. Covid -19, WFH & Research

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Hello!

Today is Saturday. Planned to wake up at 4 am for my research but failed. Luckily, Suhaib woke me up before he went to work. He wanted a sandwich. Ok then, perfect timing. Sambil gosok mata I made him sandwich. He so baik hati make me a jug of Nescafe. See, how we balanced each other👅.

So, mata-sudah-celik can update blog lah. hahahaha

Actually i wanted to shared about the Covid-19 pendemic and how my life cycle has changed tremendously.
I feel so blessed that i still have paid job. Alhamdulillah. It  has been almost three months that I've started WFH. I only required to be on-site like once a month. No more daily two hours standing in MRT.
Oh, Suhaib already started to go to office past month if I'm not mistaken. And by the way, his salary has been on-hold for 3 month already. Oh Allah, please ease us to go through this situation. Berikankanlah kami sentiasa cukup dengan yang sedikit. 

 Hmmmm..

But, so far so good. Although with the kids 24/7 with me, i think they behave so well. 

Alhamdulillah.  Except that I need to prepare foods and melayan their crankiness sometimes. But, everything is under control. If mama-jadi-hijau kadang-kadang tu, adatlah kan 😅

On the other side, my research is progressing slowly. But progressinglah. 

1. Expert Review - settled

2. Expert Review Result Analysis - on going (still figuring how to do)

3. Website validation - on going ( having problem to explain multiple tools result in one standard table). I've tried, but it requires a tedious job to filter about 500 errors for each website. Figuring how make it more easier - as not much time should be spend here. 

4. Website expert validation- not started.

There you go! 

My update for now.

adios.

30. Back to Office

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Did i ever mention that i have already started work? I mean working! Real kind of 8:30-5:30 routine?
Huhuhuhu
Alhamdulillah,
This month going to be my 4th month as a system analyst at one of the financial institution in our country.  I've started work back in end of Dec last year.
Allah's plan is the best!
I got the offer just inline with my contract as part time lecturer end. However struggle bagai-nak-rak  to finish marking those exam script in 2 days.
Phew!!
Alhamdulillah. Managed to upload student's marks on time....(dekat opis) hahahaha

Btw, my ethics application has approved! Syukur....
Currently improvising my expert review questionnaire.

Please doa for my success ye semua.
Amin

29. Silence - Deferred Semester

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What a long silence.
Nothing much to update. I deferred my semester.
But the good thing is i managed to submit ethics application for my research. Woot woot !! 👏 It was indeed one of the achievement for me. Procrastination finally killed!! Huhuhuhu Actually, ethics application supposed to be submitted back in semester two 😅. Whatever it is - Alhamdulillah.  Currently still waiting for the final approval from Committee.

Praises to Allah.
Now I've moved to next milestone. I can finally start to perform data collection.
Yeay!!